I thought that by writing in this journal about my problems it would make them better. Now I see that that’s not the case. Instead of making them better, it actually makes them worse, and thus, I am more sad. I have made a new website that I will share…

This is a continuation to Logdate Five.   As much as I would like to “die” and explore new worlds, I… am a coward. I cannot take my own life, no matter how much I’d like to.   I love my family and the thought of losing them… it hurts…

I wish that there was someone reading this… maybe there is, who knows? But I feel alone… I feel scared… I feel unworthy of the love I have… I just don’t get it. Why would anyone want to spend time with me? I’ve made so many mistakes and sins… I…

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With the help of my friend, Kioku I decided that this blog will be all my thoughts, fears, joys, etc. Uncut and uncensored.   I don’t want to be afraid of others judging me because of my autism and depression but I don’t want to lie either.   So there…

I have done bad things in the past… some of which I’m not ready to share. But I’m willing to tell you one secret about myself.   1 or 2 years ago, I had tantrums. I screamed at the top of my lungs and punched and kicked. I am not…

Today my father stayed home with me, we didn’t talk much when it was day. but when it was night we talked a lot about my fears.   I fear that I will be abandoned. I fear that I am not enough. I hate myself essentially for some reason. But…

A song which I like, it reminds me of my bird… Sora, who is no longer with us. We shared good times together but it didn’t last long, well I hope someone enjoys it as much as I do. Original by L.Dre.

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