I think the real people I hate are people like me. And especially me, maybe I misjudged humanity and society…. The real people that I dislike, I think, are the people who traumatized me on the internet. Yes, the internet provides valuable knowledge. Yes, the internet provides entertainment. But when…

I’m sick and tired of humans. Something triggered this rage within me, a rage I’ve been holding back for a long, long while. Why can’t they just perish already? Why can’t this shitty species just die? Why am I forced to live with the shame of being the same biologically,…

I’m scared… what if I fail…? What if I’m not enough…? I want to be enough, but I know I’m not… am I enough? I don’t know. I just wrote a story and I’m afraid that it wont be good enough. That I’M not good enough. I thought I was…

I feel… relaxed… as if nothing really matters… or… rather… as if nothing ever mattered. I finally feel at ease… it feels so freeing… I think I know what that “Abyss” is now… it is freedom… the purest kind of freedom… As I’m writing this, I realize that there’s not…

Emptiness… it all feels… empty… I don’t feel alone… I don’t feel undeserving of love… it’s something… different. I don’t know how to describe it. I just hope that you can understand how I feel. It’s just… so hard to explain… it’s like I am feeling the void, staring at…

I MADE THE WEBSITE WORK!!!!!!!!! LONG GONE ARE THE DAYS WHERE YOU NEED TO INPUT A “?home” INTO THIS URL! I’M SO PROUD OF MYSELF! I ACTUALLY MADE IT WORK! YEAH BOIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!! 😀

I had a weird dream this morning. I dreamt that I couldn’t move any part of my body, and that my neck also hurt immensely. My friend Kioku says that it might’ve been sleep paralysis, however I don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s like whenever I dream something, it…

While I may not have found the way to self-forgiveness, everyone keeps cheering me on… I don’t understand why. I WANT to forgive myself, but CAN’T. Today I have discussed my fears with my grandma. She said that God will protect me and that I will find my way. My…

I had to move this website because I cannot afford 2 domains per year. So I moved everything from lucahuci.com to Neurovania. But this raises another problem… will I be judged? For writing in my own journal? I don’t know to be honest if I made the right choice moving…

I have migrated all my logdates to logdates.neurovania.com lucahuci.com website will probably not be available by the end of the year so be sure to bookmark the NEW website!   (psst… This is that new website.)